To the Man who seeks my heart

romance

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Dear Love,

I have no idea who you are right now. I don’t know if I have met you, or simply passed you while crossing the street. Maybe we run in the same circles. Maybe you knew me as a little girl and at this moment, you’re watching me grow. I don’t know. But I feel the need to write to you. Whoever you are.

I’m not here to tell you that I want diamonds and rubies. Neither am I here to say I hope you’re pursuing Medicine or Law or those fancy fields. And I sure as hell don’t care if you’re from a rich family or not.

I want one thing from you. One thing that covers everything. One thing that I am willing to give to you. I want a true, unconditional love. Not the ‘love’ that demands that your entire world must revolve around me. Not the ‘love’ that requires that you take me out to 5-star restaurants every night and give me shiny bracelets and pearl necklaces.

I don’t care for the world. I’m not asking you for that. Because frankly, I’m the girl who has always held her own and will continue to up to the point of marriage and after. I don’t need to be spoiled. I don’t need material things from you. I’ve always been mainly independent and whatever material things you can give to me, I can give to myself.

What I want from you is something real. I want loyalty. I don’t want to be taken for granted. I don’t wish to give 120% while you barely give even half of that.

I don’t wish to play games with you. We’re grown people. Been there, done that. Be straight with me. Tell me whether you are truly interested or not. Life is short and time wasted can never be regained. Do not waste my time.

If I decide to speak to you, moreover, get in a relationship with you, it’s because I can see myself marrying you. If you don’t feel the same way, then tell me from the onset.

See, I’m a woman who believes in all or nothing. If I truly love you, I will move mountains for you. I will give my best and only that. I will invest my everything. But I refuse to give my everything to a man who will take me for a ride. I refuse to give my best to a man who seeks to manipulate my mental and lead me on only to drop me and move on to another woman. Not this woman.

I don’t want you to be perfect because I know I am not. I’m a woman decorated with flaws but still ever so worthy of the purest love. I see that in you too.

I want a partnership. I want us to grow together. I want to celebrate milestones with you. First car. First house. Graduating with a Masters degree. You name it.

I want us to grow together. Physically, spiritually, emotionally. I want to learn from you and I want to teach you too. Let’s talk about the universe. Politics. Food. Animals. Music. Share our personal stories.

I want to raise dogs with you and take them for walks with you on Sunday evenings while we walk and talk about just about anything.

I don’t need you to always fill me with compliments. I want to have little battles of sarcasm every now and then. Roasting you, you roasting me and then laughing and cheering for whoever has the best comeback.

I want us to try new foods and experiment in the kitchen and laugh when the dishes don’t turn out as they should while sitting on the floor eating whatever we can find.

I want to be your biggest fan. Telling the world of your achievements and how proud I am of you. And I want you to do the same.

You don’t ever have to worry about me just getting up and leave. I will give my all and I will fight for us. The only time I will stop is if I see that I am the only one fighting.

I hope you know God and have come to realize his awesome power. I hope you love him and have a true connection with Him.

Of course, I want to have babies with you. I want us to have children who are full of life and love to share with the world. I want us to love them unconditionally and never let them feel as if they are unloved. I want to give them all we never had and more. Let’s remind them all the time how amazing they are and how they can do whatever they put their minds to. Let’s teach them to respect God from a tender age. I want us to be at parent-teacher conferences and be at their recitals, games etc. I want us to play with them and turn the house upside-down sometimes. I know they won’t be perfect but when they slip up, I want us to remember that we were once kids and we made lots of mistakes. I want us to discipline them in love.

I want a home. Not just a house. A place where we can entertain friends and family and have the walls echoing excitement and laughter. I want a place with an atmosphere of love.

They say behind every great man is a strong woman. I don’t wish to be behind you. If I’m behind you, chances are when the storms of life come, I can be pushed back. I want to be beside you. Holding your hand each step of the way, reminding you that I’ll always be there and you’re not in anything on your own.

I believe in you. I believe in your dreams and I will work with you to make them a reality. I will give you my support and I expect the same from you.

Let’s save and travel the world together. I want to make memories with you because at the end of the day, I don’t wish to be rich by the world’s definition of wealth but rich in experiences.

I don’t expect a smooth journey. We’ll have disagreements. Possibly moments where we just don’t want to be in each other’s presence. I’m prepared for it all. In those moments, I ask that you find solace, not in another woman but that you will remind yourself that what we have is worth it, worth working on.

Whoever you are, wherever you are, I hope more than all, than our souls will meet and form a true connection. I hope we will have a love that will not only make the ocean jealous of our depth but the Sun, Moon and stars, of how well we shine.

Sincerely,

Nash

 

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